Drowning

I feel like I am drowning in a sea of debt.

I had my miscarriage on July 4th. All things considered, I thought I handled it fairly well. However, these last four weeks have been SO hard. Nights are the worst. I keep thinking of the "What If's". I know these things happen for a reason, but why me?

To make things harder, every week I get new doctor bills. We were FINALLY getting ahead. We paid off our furniture, and sold Zach's summer car. By doing that, we eliminated over $300 dollars worth of insurance and bills we paid every month. And now it's all swallowed up by bills and we are further behind. It's all so overwhelming.

I know that in time we will be where we want to be and have the family we want. It's just so hard to keep your head above everything when something is always pulling you down.