A Good Day

Saturday was SO much fun. I had my first paying photo job! I worked with Donald and Darcy. Donald is Lila's older brother. We went to Lawrence Park and took over 200 photos. I cleaned up about 35 pictures for them and made prints. It was exciting to work with new people, but it also made me nervous! I couldn't boss them around like my other models and I HAD to do well since they were giving me money. Overall, I had a lot of fun and I can't wait to get out there and do more pictures!

Bitch? Me??

I think my biggest pet peeve EVER is when a "friend" asks for my opinion. Since we are "friends" I am going to be honest with you. Isn't that what friends do? So when you ask me how that hideous torn up "fashionable" mini skirt looks - and I say it's not all that great - do NOT get offended. Maybe it's bitchy to tell the truth.

And if you want to ruin your life, that's fine. But think of the other people in your life that you are taking down with you. Is it really fair? Especially to someone who can't do anything about it. When you write checks to places and then place stop payments and close your account, don't call ME a bitch for telling you that what you did was wrong. If you incur debits, man up and pay for them. If you want me to have a good opinion of you, do good things.

The only person being a bitch is you. I'm just being honest.

Drowning

I feel like I am drowning in a sea of debt.

I had my miscarriage on July 4th. All things considered, I thought I handled it fairly well. However, these last four weeks have been SO hard. Nights are the worst. I keep thinking of the "What If's". I know these things happen for a reason, but why me?

To make things harder, every week I get new doctor bills. We were FINALLY getting ahead. We paid off our furniture, and sold Zach's summer car. By doing that, we eliminated over $300 dollars worth of insurance and bills we paid every month. And now it's all swallowed up by bills and we are further behind. It's all so overwhelming.

I know that in time we will be where we want to be and have the family we want. It's just so hard to keep your head above everything when something is always pulling you down.

My First Post

The last few months have been very trying. I am glad to finally have a place to put down my rantings, thoughts, and feelings.

I guess I will start off with an introduction to who I am. My name is Sarah and I'm 22 years old. I currently reside in a smallish city in NorthWest Montana. I guess I am a pretty typical person. I enjoy reading and listening to music. I also like to go out and have a good time on occasion. I am currently employed full time as a Loan Shark. In my free time I love getting out and working on my photography. I like taking pictures of interesting or pretty plants and animals, but I LOVE doing portraits. I have done several shoots for family members and friends, and I'm always on the prowl for new subjects.

I have two sisters, an older one and a younger one. Being the average middle child, I am the bridge between the two. I am mild and even tempered with a good sense of humor. I love my family (even though they drive me completely crazy 98% of the time) and I wish we could all get together more often. As of right now, we are all scattered around the country. I am grateful for the few days we spend together every few months though. My family is a great support system and I am lucky to have them.

I am currently living with my boyfriend. We get along pretty well, for the most part. He also drives me crazy 98% of the time, but we work it out. I am fortunate that we have the same goals and priorities in life.

Eventually I hope to attend school for photography. It would amazing to turn my hobby into a career. I do NOT see myself working the 9 - 5 job (though I used to think it would make me happy). I love doing different things every day, and I can't wait to see what's in store for tomorrow (even though I hate surprises).